At age 13, we moved to Pensacola, FL. 

With new schools, change in environment, and all the typical teenage insecurities that came with that, I started drinking at age 14, and discovered a new freedom of mind and care.

I began to feel a strong desire for personal independence, self discovery, and the need to be free of parental, church, and religious influence. 

This feeling, however, created conflict for me, as I still felt personally drawn to God.

These were spiritual conflicts that led to frequent mood changes and signs of manic depression, and  I rode an emotional roller coaster of  extreme "highs" and "lows."  

I found myself in a spiritual and emotional "tug of war" that would last throughout my teenage years, and became a constant theme, around which all things in my life came to be pronounced.