Despite my songwriting success and the gracious people around me, I was living and working within a community of folks whose beliefs were the same as those I was persuaded to espouse from childhood, and not entirely those I had came to believe by my own resolve.   

I didn't want to be defined by anyone's belief system or spiritual persuasion, unless convinced it was a spirituality of my own choosing.  

I became determined to know and understand what "I" believed, and who "I" was.  To do this, I felt I had to take extreme measures, and I did...


I began reading other philosophies, ideas, religions, and ways of thinking. 

For some reason, I also engaged in behaviors that defied my moral values, which I now bemoan and understand wasn't necessary, but it was all part of my seeking. 

I stepped outside the circle of my upbringing and started writing songs meant for that purpose...