I had been in therapy for several years before this occurred, but I never focused in sessions, on the obsessive compulsive thoughts and urges to repent.
I think I was embarrassed and didn't want to admit the insanity of it. My mania, however, was obvious and incapable of disguise.
Amidst the grief and the loss of my record deal, I kept writing and believing that I was on the right path somehow for my life. but I also felt I need something more, to create something BIGGER than myself.
In 1997, I changed my name to, Constant Change